Dorete died two years ago.
Dorete dies every morning.
She dies every minute of every day.
Two years ago Dorete found the lifeless body of her beloved Christer on the floor.
Dorete paid for her son's Ivy League education at University of Pennsylvania.
He never acknowledged it.
She also financed her daughter's college education.
She never acknowledged it.
At age thirty-four her daughter-in-law almost died of breast cancer.
Dorete and Christer suspended their practice of psychotherapy and nursed her back to health.
They sacrificed fees and clients for love of family.
Her son, Yarrum, too busy for his wife returned home across the continent for business-as-usual.
Dorete and Christer received no acknowledgments.
Evil unleashed by sadism denied.
Dorete's mother, Trudy, lay dying of cancer in a New Jersey hospital bed and about to undergo a fatal needle biopsy of her liver to confirm the diagnosis.
She was saved by Christer.
He insisted, "We'll take her to Sloan Kettering for a second opinion!" Sloan Kettering confirmed his caution and they performed a CT scan instead.
The results were negative.
Age eighty-six the mother lives.
Christer died at age sixty-six.
The family, including Trudy, denies Christer's life saving intervention.
Evil unleashed by sadism denied.
As an adult, Dorete's daughter, Sonja, suffered uncontrollable rage against men.
Sonja suspected some childhood sexual abuse.
She recalled memories that during her adolescence her own father caused her to feel sexually uncomfortable.
Christer provided weekly and "on-call" psychotherapy.
Sonja gained the self-confidence and self-esteem she was lacking and promptly stabbed Christer in his back.
Her claim: "He never did anything for me, Mom!"Evil unleashed by sadism denied.
The man that sired Yarrum and Sonja totes a juvenile criminal record.
He was arrested "...
forcing by threat of bodily harm another boy to perform oral sex upon him...
" Yarrum and Sonja adore this man who sired them, this man who also abused them and their mother.
Evil unleashed by sadism denied.
Dorete has a sister thirteen years her junior.
Her name is Gina.
Gina was born with brain damage because the mother, Trudy, attempted an illegal abortion.
The mother also forced Dorete, age twelve, to witness this act.
Evil unleashed by sadism denied.
An adult now, Gina, is seriously handicapped.
Christer, who deeply loved all humanity, felt Gina's pain and he secured financial aid from Social Services for her.
Gina is finally financially independent.
But, Gina aches for the love her mother withholds.
The mother disdained Christer for helping her younger daughter.
You see, the mother doesn't love, she controls.
Evil unleashed by sadism denied.
Dorete shared her grief and guilt about Christer's death with her son.
Yarrum, merely an apple fallen not far enough from his father's tree, shoved and twisted the knife deep into his mother's heart.
Yarrum's own distortions of the truth put on paper to deceive all; in his own self-righteousness.
He published an article of untruths based on his mother's wails of pain.
Evil unleashed by sadism denied.
Yarrum exploited his mother capitalizing on her soul injury - the haunting vision of her beautiful soul mate lying lifeless on the floor.
Yarrum used this haunting vision, the primary source of Dorete's on-going post traumatic stress as a weapon against her.
The haunting vision she struggles daily to forget - the love of her life, larger than life, more compassionate, loving, intelligent, fun, funnier and more alive than anyone she ever knew - now stiff and lifeless.
The feelings she shared in confidence with Yarrum he distorted and published for the entire world to see.
Evil unleashed by sadism denied.
By Patricia Brozinsky, PhD 2007 Copyright©, all rights reserved